Sunday, January 18, 2009

I Need Never Never Land ASAP

I got a phone call this morning from my mom. My grandfather (Papa) is being flown to the hospital where I live. They found a tumour on each of his lungs. He doesn't want treatment and is giving up. Deep down I knew something of this sort was going to happen it just kills me right now to be kicked while I am already down. He has smoked since I can remember along with everyone else on that side of the family except my mom she was strong enough to quit years ago. I am so thankful that I quit smoking just over two years ago. I almost followed in his footsteps. It terrifies me because my husband smokes and I just don't want anything to happen to him. I wish he would be strong enough to quit if not for himself for his sons sake. I don't even know what to think my mind is spinning in circles. It is so amazing what can happen in a persons life in a few short weeks.

I did plan on running today but to tell you the truth I can't, I just can't. It is hard to think positive at this time. I am going to attempt to find 5 things I am grateful for right now.
1. I am grateful that Papa and I have become closer over the years.
2. I am grateful that I have people who love and care about me.
3. I am grateful that I quit smoking and now am on the quest to be as healthy as I can be.
4. I am grateful I have my son to keep me busy through this time, he is such a breath of fresh air.
5. I am grateful my husband is so supportive.


  1. I'm really sorry to hear about your grandfather. It's never easy to get that kind of news. If you can manage it at all, get out for a run, even a short one. I know you just don't want to but it does help.

  2. Sry about your grandfather. Sadly, I see this nearly everday in the hospital. Most importnat time for him is now!