Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008 was quite the year.

I struggled through some hard times with the lifestyle change of being a mommy, having to get up 10 times a night, not being able to pick up and go whenever I pleased, bringing little love to therapy and doctors appointments non stop, feeling so alone, losing my dog, weight gain, husband lost his job, struggling to get a marriage certificate after two years of marriage and the government had no record of us ever being married. Money struggles, family issues, the regular stuff.

My accomplishments and happy times far outweigh my struggles. My little love and I have worked so hard this past year on his gross and fine motor skills and I am proud to say that he is now in the normal range!!! My Husband and I are so proud of him, he is our whole life. I have been so lucky this past year because my husband ended up changing careers and making enough money so that I could stay home and raise our son and make sure he gets to all his appointments and we do all the homework we get from his therapists. I witnessed my little loves first everything and that is so amazing, his first kiss, his first hug, first step, first word, you name it I had the opportunity to be there. I never understood the love between a parent and their child until I was a mom. Simply amazing!
We bought a camp this year in my hometown and it is our getaway. Buying a camp was a dream of ours for years and this past year it came true.

My goals for 2009
1. Get a babysitter at least once a month and go out with my husband
2. Run my 5k in May.. I mean run the whole 5K
3. Do something extraordinary for someone special
4. Eat healthy, drink enough water, keep running.
5. Declutter my house, donate everything I don't use or need
6. Save money for emergencies
7. Be in the best shape I have ever been in.
8. Be patient, loving and understanding to everyone I love
9. Help my son be the best he can be
10. Take a writing course.
11. Keep reading and better myself with every book
12. Smile and laugh and live in the moment
13. Make sure I let my husband know how much I appreciate him...everyday.
14. Keep my head high and stay confident when "someone" trys to get me down and sabotage my efforts.

OK I AM READY......COME ON 2009!!!!!!!!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Taking the good with the Bad

Christmas Holiday was all in all a good one. Santa bought me a Wii and Wii fit!! I know I am spoiled. Little love was spoiled to of course, tons of toys and clothes from family and friends. Had nice visits with both families, still exercised and only gained two pounds throughout the whole thing!!

The downfall was we got home our vehicle that love uses for work wouldn't start and we had to buy a new starter for it. Thank god my love is mechanically inclined or it would have cost an arm and a leg. We get inside and our kitchen sink is clogged and backing up in the tub and bathroom sink and then finally I go downstairs and it was flooded. Last but not least,(drumroll please) My love hurt his back and is now off work for lord knows how long.

But I am grateful for so much and feel like everything is going to be ok. Vehicle is fixed, drains are fixed, mopped up the basement, we just have to work on healing loves back.

Phew Breath in, Breath out

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Merry Christmas

Wow time flies! Christmas is already here. I am just going to take this time to slow down and list some things that I am grateful for.
1. I am grateful for my family, they are so wonderful. My husband is my soulmate and my child is my life, my parents are still both here and are both very dear to me.
2. I am finally starting to do something for myself (running) and am taking steps to finding passion, health and happiness in my life.
3. I am grateful for the wonderful running comunity online and the motivation and courage that they give me.
4. I am grateful I have started reading again, I love to read and find when I don't that my mind wanders away from what truly matters in life.
5. I am grateful I am here today to write this, I make the choice every day how I want to react to certain situations and I choose today to not worry about the negative things that have been going on in the past few days.

Take time to be grateful for the little things as well as the big. What are you grateful for today?

Monday, December 22, 2008

Trying to keep on track

Feeling a bit more in the Christmas spirit these days, boy that christmas music sure does help. I finally set up the tree and it is sooooo cute!! My love has to work for the next couple of days and then back to camp to celebrate Christmas.

Exercise wise is going well, I am sticking to my beginner running program and can't wait until I can just keep running. Taking things slow is not usually my thing, I am an all or nothing kind of girl but I am following advice from experienced runners and just can't wait till I get the ok to run my little heart out haha.

I had to exercise outside yesterday because I wasn't at home to jump on my treadmill and it was sooo cold and windy I just couldn't wait to get back to camp. Thank god I only had to go out for 20 minutes. I did feel so great though when I thawed out I was done my exercise for the day.

My eating plan fell a little off track this past week. My Gramma of course gave me a bunch of sweets and can't help to test them out. I put most of it in the freezer and will give it to my love in his lunch for work every day until it is gone. Although we have two dinners to go to in the near future and I have a weakness for turkey dinners. Please give me the strength to not eat everything in sight over the christmas holidays!! Portion control, Portion control!!!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Need to get in the Spirit of Christmas!!

Ok I don't know what has happened but as I get older Christmas seems like more of a chore. Shopping is just not my thing and half of the time I don't know what to get someone.
I will admit, I do love shopping for children because it is just so easy and I get excited for them. Dislike shopping for adults though unless it is for my love because he is easy to buy for. I bought him a track for his sled this year and was so excited I gave it to him early. I know what fun is that but I couldn't help it haha. Once my son is old enough to understand the concept I think I will get back in the spirit.
Time just flies by and I only put up half of my decorations, didn't even put up my tree. We were supposed to spend Christmas at our camp so we were going to set up the tree there and then my love has been working so much we haven't been there to decorate. I really hope we are able to get there through the holidays.
I have about 99% of my shopping done and am very happy with that but won't be able to relax until I am totally finished.
My love's boss told him he could have two weeks off at Christmas so we made a whole bunch of plans and now his boss renegged and he doesn't even know what the holiday schedule is. That is just frustrating. I am trying to be positive but it is hard when everyone else is not in the Christmas spirit either.
Ok I am going to go make some herbal tea and put on some Christmas tunes and get into the spirit.
As for running, It is going to be hard to get motivated over the holidays because I won't have my treadmill, but my beginners program is pretty easy so I really have no excuse, I just need someone to watch the boy while I go because bringing his stroller out in this snow will be impossible.
Ya,right, tea and christmas music here I come!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

What am I doing?

Ok so all of a sudden I am addicted to reading other peoples blogs. I find other peoples lives so interesting. I see myself in a lot of the ladies out there with me being a stay at home mom or a woman in general and just trying to find something for themselves. Something to escape from the repetitiveness of our days. I am not saying that being home with my child isn't the greatest thing it's just sometimes we forget that we have to take care of ourselves as well as everyone else in the house. We need some me time and this is what I am going to be doing from now on.

So here we go. I got together with the greatest guy I have ever met in my life 10 years ago. We are now married and have a 15 month old son who is the greatest "little guy" I have ever met. I do not think that my life is perfect but it is simple and when I look in from afar it is a great life.

I am a small town girl and struggle with self esteem issues and was scared of most things in life. In the past 10 years with the help of my guy I have conquered alot of my fears one by one. He is truly so supportive and amazing. I am 28 years old, 5'4" weighing 139lbs. I just recently lost 15lbs through diet and exercise and am feeling so much better about my body image.

I have always admired anyone who ran. Whenever I seen somebody out there giving it the best they had I was envious of their strength and courage to do such a thing. I was always to embarrased to get out there and try. I would always say to myself, "I should be doing that right now." So after years of watching everyone else run here I am today, I started a beginning program and feel great, thanks to some wonderful running and weight loss friends I have met online already. I got up enough courage to enter a 5K in May 2009. I am so scared and nervous but it is exactly what I need to push myself and get motivated.

I am brand new to this blogging world but am looking forward to the great journey. The great journey of health, fitness, happiness and finding myself.