Feeling grateful today.

I didn't run yesterday, I just couldn't bring myself to put on my running shoes. I would have stayed in bed the whole day if I didn't have to chase around my two year old. I am a little tired and stuffed up today but good news is my body aches are gone.

So on that note I am going for a run today. Not sure how far but I am going. I am going to try to get it in this morning because the afternoon looks like it is going to be pretty busy.

I weighed myself this morning and was down to 152.5lbs which gives me a 6.5lb weight loss so far. Man I can't believe that I gained 20 pounds in such a short amount of time. In December of last year I was 139lbs. It is my own fault though. I let my emotions get the best of me and the emotional eating began, my exercise dwindled and I lost track of who I really and and want to be. I am glad I woke up before 20lbs turned into something more.

I have read some weight loss blogs recently and they inspire me so much. They are so strong yet admit when they mess up but get right back on track again. I admire that so much. It is nice to read about real peoples struggles and accomplishments that is what gives me that little push to try just a bit harder. I thank all of you for that.

I found out yesterday that not only my sister was coming to watch me race but my nephew and brother in law are coming to support me too. I know it is going to be an emotional race for me because I am running in honour of my brother in laws mom. She is just starting radiation. I am not sure if she is going to be there I kind of hope not because I am already weepy as it is and I would be so embarrased lol. I just found out yesterday that my mothers best friend got diagnosed with lung cancer and starts radiation and chemo in a week. That simply breaks my heart, all of these wonderful people getting the disease. This is hard on my mom because she just lost her father to lung cancer 7 months ago. So I will be thinking of them as well.

When it all comes down to it life IS so short. You never know what is going to happen to the people you love ofryourself so why do most of us spend our whole lives not being the best we can be at all times? We have to be grateful for what we have and learn from every experience we can to better ourselves. I definately have to take my own advice and it starts here.

Here's to wonderful days ahead!!!

Feelin poopy

Well I have been feeling under the weather all week but we finally got our new furnace installed and have heat. It was sure cold yesterday morning.

I don't know whether I should make myself run or not with this cold. I ache all over and just feel blah. I was supposed to go yesterday but just couldn't get motivated and ended up going to bed as soon as I got my son to bed.

I only have 3 more days until my 5k and am scared I won't be able to beat my time. There just seems to be so much going on around here these days. My basement flooded so my husband is doing the weeping tile this weekend. I have been cleaning up water for the past couple days. Furnace guys in and out of the house. Appointment for little man Friday, Wedding Saturday night after working on the weeping tile all day and my race on Sunday. If I can make it without feeling to overwhelmed I will be so grateful.

So what do you think, should I run today and tomorrow and rest saturday before the race? Or skip today run friday and rest Saturday? Or not run at all?

6days until 5k

My original goal for my Sunday run was to go a distance of 4.4km. So yesterday I woke up and I simply felt horibble, my whole body ached and I intantly changed my goal to just getting out past the end of my driveway.

I am proud to say that I did my 4.4km, with the help of my running buddy and a little slower mind you but I did it and I felt fantastic for about an hour afterwards and then the aches and pains in my body returned from whatever sickness I had so I ended up laying low for the rest of the day and made a huge pot of chili. Mmmm it was soooo good.

4km today

I feel a little ashamed because I have had to start my running experience almost from the start again.

I have new goals this time around though. I started running in the first place because I admired anyone I knew that ran and I wish I could do it. With alot of hard work, ups and downs, and a great set of online friends I ran my first 5k. It was such a huge accomplishment for me and I felt on top of the world.

My biggest mistake I think I made was not entering another race right away to keep my motivation. Life got busy and I was discouraged and my running declined and my weight went up. I didn't stop running altogether thank goodness but when I started to get more serious I could sure tell I was out of shape again.

So here I am starting over with 5lbs down and 14lbs to go and I am up to running 4km in 31.52min.

I have 9 days left before my 5k race and I hope I can beat my last race time of I think it was 38.35min. If I don't I know it is not the end of the world. The bigger picture here is I am running a race for a friend with breast cancer and this day is all about her.

My very first race pic.

It has taken me so long to get this picture but here I am after my 5k I ran for my grandfather and Bosco in May 2009. What a great day that was.

I think I can, I think I can

It feels different being a stay at home mom again but I am already feeling calmer and happier than working where I was.

I ran again with my son in the stroller and found it so challenging. Pushing around an extra 30 some pounds makes a huge difference not to mention you don't get your usual arm motions either. Thanks for commenting on my last post Sarah and to answer your question I won't be running the race with my son and thank goodness for that because I don't know if it would be a very successful race the way I am going right now haha.

Although I am finding it a great change to run with the stroller I think it will better my training in the end.

I am going to try another 5k

I am contemplating entering another 5k. It is on Oct 4th. It is the Race for the Cure for breast cancer. I found out a friend of the family has breast cancer and is starting her radiation soon and thought this would be my way of saying I am here for you and I love you.
She already found out I was planning on running the race in her name and now I am a tad bit nervous. I have only a couple weeks to get my but in gear. I have been running three times a week but only 3km.
I am also a stay at home mom again which means I have to push a stroller as well. I did it for the first time today in a long time and my legs sure noticed the difference.
So I need a plan because I want to run this race and I have to beat my last race time which was just over 38 min. I know I can do it, I just need to find the strength and determination.